H. Miller

We are behavior machines. Observed from inside, our lives are oceanic and operatic, the deepest story we can know. Movies run their characters through mad plots just to tell us a story of intensity comparable to our inner lives. Opera makes extreme music that translates emotionally to the weight of a normal life being lived. Our lives are magic bags, bigger inside than out.

As individuals, we arrive here loaded like treasure galleons with personality, attitude and latent loves and hates. As babies, we appear to people in general as simple to the point of near homogeneity, merely the site of a future human being. But our parents can see a coherent unfolding narrative in the styles and passions we show as we grow. We develop through our own efforts, a bit, but not nearly as much as we reveal ourselves. We are part of the audience for our own reveal as we learn unexpected truths from growing. Our personal executive-style emerges from this dense core of individuality and we advance,  leaving a culminating trail of decisions like footprints in the snow. So our trajectory becomes clear. Continue reading


These are all panorama pictures knit from at least 2 different shots, usually more.



“We are so convinced that past evils must repeat themselves that we make them repeat themselves. We dare not risk a new life in which the evils of the past are totally forgotten; a new life seems to imply new evils, and we would rather face evils that are already familiar… Hence we cling to the evil that has already become ours, and renew it from day-to-day, until we become identified with it and change is no longer thinkable.”

–Thomas Merton, New Seeds of Contemplation




I pray this is the beginning of reducing anxiety for real. Imagine the liberated potential and freedom from fear.

Study of nonhuman primates lays the groundwork for new strategies in treating anxiety

Boosting a single molecule in the brain can change ‘dispositional anxiety,’ the tendency to perceive
many situations as threatening, in nonhuman primates, researchers have found. The molecule,
neurotrophin-3, stimulates neurons to grow and make new connections.

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